One slip up. One lapse of judgement. One terrible mistake set me back at least two weeks of healing. It’s crushing, but I know that there isn’t anyone to blame but myself. For over a month I was a good girl… refusing dairy, choosing fruits over chocolate, and water over alcohol. My hands were on the mend and nearly back to normal.
Two days ago, I caved.
I’ve been having major cravings for chocolate for a good week and no matter how much I tried, whether it was eating delicately sweet pears to making Pinch of Yum’s chocolate banana ice cream….the craving was never satisfied. My sweet tooth was stubborn…I thought I was too.
Two days ago, everything came crashing down. The chocolate craving was more persistant than ever and I was fighting a losing battle. That night we had a bunch of friends over for games which included snacks, chips, and…chocolate. With my willpower long gone, I ate the delicous sweet goodness that’s been haunting my dreams. It was heavenly guys, I can’t even pretend like it wasn’t.
I ate probably close to 20 mini eggs (…is that a lot?) and with my sweet tooth finally quiet, the chocolate was once again pushed aside and forgotten.
Mere hours later, my hands exploded in a red, itchy fury.
This morning they are still itchy. Along with the itching came peeling skin and small fluid filled sacs just ready to ooze. Perhaps worst of all, around the inflammation my skin looks as if it is literally bubbling. This is known as “ant’s nest” or pompholox eczema. Read more about it here from Dr. Trevor Erikson.
While this whole ordeal is a bit soul crushing, it seems as though it was a necessary evil. It’s re-opened my eyes. If I’m going to conquer eczema once and for all I’m gonna have to really buckle down. It’s time to start a food diary, an elimination diet….and throw out all the chocolate in the house!
If you ever stumble, just know I’ve been there too -and I’m right here to help you back up again.
Health & Happiness,